Redoing......

This blog. I have already made two attempts at writing a blog and I haven't been happy with either of them. I really liked the title of this one, so I deleted my other posts and am starting over. I love to read blogs. I lurk on many every day, when time allows, while my brain keeps nudging me to start one myself. I'm not really sure what the theme here is, other than what's described in the title, but at any rate this one will be filled with the good, the bad and the ugly. I think I'm doing this for me. I need some release from the stresses that have overtaken my life. I'm worn out. I've tied my knot. I'm hanging on. As Walt(Disney, of course) says(only maybe in a different context),we must keep moving forward.
As a bit of an introduction, let me tell you a bit about me(as if a million people will be reading this...as if one will. :) ). I am a Disney-obsessed mom of three. I am in the middle of a stressful point in my life and I want to write about it. Just for Pete's sake. Whoever that is. I am also a goofy girl with a sense of humor that seems to stick around no matter what life brings me. I don't mean for it to, but it rears its silly head even in the worst of times. Even when I'm screaming and throwing things because life sucks at that very second. Don't tell me YOU haven't done that. Oh well. My life doesn't really suck, and I'm extremely grateful for all that I have. I thank God every night for what I've been blessed with. As far as the bad stuff...let me lay it on the table. My mom passed away last year from a sudden heart attack. Part of me has been lost ever since. My dad isn't around and I feel like an orphan at 43. We are in the middle of a foreclosure process that we aren't sure can be reversed. We can barely pay the bills...to be honest..we can barely keep the lights on. My kids are getting free lunches and textbook assistance this year for the first time ever. Fall is closing in fast and I'm not sure how I can buy them warm clothes. The good things...my kids are healthy. My husband hasn't lost HIS car yet. My mom's house was on the market and we may have a buyer. That would help us incredibly with our finances. Her house was paid off and I was her only child, so once the estate is paid off and we get some things caught up, we will have a bit of a cushion. My husband is building his own financial services business. The company we work through is a wonderful company with amazingly wonderful, positive people who started out just like us. Average. Everyday. Struggling. Tired of living INSIDE the box and ready to step out. I love this company, but it takes a while to build a business through them, as it does anywhere. SO. We're a BIT strapped. I work, but it doesn't help lots...just keeps us out of serious trouble. My husband has been trying to find a job until business picks up, but its a bit tough around here(He took a buyout from a big 3 automaker early last year and there's nothing left of that money, though it was a great decision)). Life has its ups and downs and we're in a "down" right now. At some point we'll be on the upswing. Its how life works. I do my best with my faith. I was raised to have lots of it. Sometimes though, life can wear you down. No matter how optimistic you are. No matter how positive you think. After months of no change, I'm worn out. My job is getting the best of me. My personal life is getting the best of me. I'm tired, but I'll get there. To the good stuff.
Now. Let me explain this Disney thing. Most of my family is obsessed, including my husband. We love Walt Disney World, want to visit Disneyland, and will eventually live in Florida. We used to visit WDW 2-3 times a year, but not sure when we'll get to visit again. It may sound ridiculous to some, but its almost devastating to us. Disney property is where the real world drops off. Its where the magic begins. It what we know. Its who we are. We have other interests and dreams and will someday visit other parts of the world...but Walt Disney World is our "home". We love the music, we love and respect what Walt was about. We are like Walt. We aren't just dreamers, we are doers. So follow me as I write about the miscellaneous happenings of a family who will not only chase their dreams, but catch them.